Though the brain says all is well, the soul is lost,
confused, doesn’t know why life is being unfair to it. But you still wake up in
the morning and take care of your children, your husband, your lover, your
boss, your employees, those dozens of people who make an ordinary day come to
life. And you often have a smile on our face and a word of encouragement,
because no one can explain their loneliness to others, especially when you are
always in good company.
Even knowing that everyone, at some point, has felt
completely and utterly alone, it is humiliating to say, “I’m lonely, I need
company.
Yet we cannot lose hope. We start doing things we don’t
usually do, daring to go beyond what is fair and necessary. The thorns inside
us will grow larger and more overwhelming, yet we cannot give up halfway.
Everyone is looking to see the final outcome, as though life were a huge game
of chess. We pretend it doesn’t matter whether we win or lose…. We root for our
true feelings to stay opaque and hidden, but then … … instead of looking for
companionship, we isolate ourselves even more in order to lick our wounds in
silence.
But
one day those who are blind begin to see. Those who are sad are comforted.
Those who suffer are saved. Still, you have to lie and cheat, because this time
the circumstances are different. Who hasn’t felt the urge to drop everything
and go in search of their dream? A dream is always risky, for there is a price
to pay. That price is death by stoning in some countries, and in others it
could be social ostracism or indifference. But there is always a price to pay.
You keep lying and people pretend they still believe, but secretly they are
jealous, make comments behind your back, say you’re the very worst, most
threatening thing there is. Like You”
